Moving my mother today! We've been waiting almost 2 months for this, and have been downsizing like crazy! Thank you for your patience, life will hopefully settle soon!
I laid down on the bed with a good book I'm really into.. Began reading the words on the page.. But deep inside my soul began to creep the 911 call I can hear to this day standing outside the court room.. I heard you screaming, and gasping, and couldn't get to you fast enough.. I then put in the earphones, as I couldn't read anymore tonight as my will couldn't silence your screams, but each word in every song was you, to me.. I paced the house, walking back and forth waiting for the anxiety to subside.. But it hasn't and it won't, and I relive these next 36 hours play by play with every silver lining. I'm outside, tears are streaming down my face as I peer into the sky, searching for your stars, you're there.. Gleaming bright.. Just not physically where you should be. My heart begins to beat faster with every word I type, somebody please never forget my baby, my Madaloonie... It may have been 8 years now, but the feelings and trauma of yesterday do not fail me, for I remember you every second of everyday, and let the fire burn the path for my footsteps. So many have taken so much from me, but they can't have you, and they can't steal our memories. I love you Madi always have and always will.